It all started when Weijie and I was talkin abt our problems in the school library, for like 2 whole hours, NON-STOP! Oh nono, dun get me wrong, it's Weijie tat's the problematic one, my life is doin all well. It's great, with all I ever could have. I've dotin parents (excluding the occasional arguments), an enjoyable family, a bunch of wonderful friends, a carin bud, and a great bf. I'm sooo blessed that I've fallen deep down into my own comfort zone of life, and stubbornly refused the changes that had came into my path every now and then.

When my cg leader decided to gimme me more responsibilities, I simply backed out. When I was given a choice for futher education overseas, I refused. When I was given a chance to earn more allowance, I declined. When Dar wanted to take the relationship into a higher level, I freeze. And the reason behind all these rejections? I'm juz afraid. Afraid to even give everythin a try. Life's short, you may say. But I'm too stagnant for changes. I'm not determined enough to accept the new modifications into my life.  Maybe I'm too pessimistic to see silver linings behind every dark clouds, tat's y I avoided to even have a chance for the dark clouds to develop in the 1st place. It goes the same for the job, the education, the relationship, and even the walk with God. Therefore in the end, I chose, to give up everythin that requires changes. Excludin the relationship so far. Sometimes, yes, I do wonder, had I missed any golden opportunities while I had chose the latter, but.... well, not sure. Nevertheless, Life is full of uncertainties isn't it?

Anyway, Weijie said I'm selfish, while I had became so satisfied with my own life, I'd failed to place others' feelings into consideration. Well, I agreed, sometimes, I heard only my own voice, so much tat I became too self-centered for my own good. I dun wana to take things to a higher level, as it seems perfectly fine now. Futhurmore, when commitments comes into the picture, changes are to be made, which i detest to change! He quoted that Sacrificing is a part of Love, If you dun even know how to sacrifice, you dun even know Love. He even suggests that I should take an initial step to discard and sacrifice my comfort zone, to go ahead and give it a try. Question! Am I in love YET???!!! Wellz, I really duno. It's too early to clearly verify anything right now.

It may be Love, Infatuation, or juz a simple Likin. Notice all these 3 started out with a common thing? The attraction for each other. The Feel. To me, an infatuation is a moment of strong passion towards each other, but usually short-lived. Likes are juz some feelings of simple affection. However, Love.... is Undefined.

1st Cor 13: 3-8 [Bible explains Love.]