|
|
Here in this borin resource room of the school library, Weijie & I started chattin, abt the SIP, the ProjectScope, and my realtionships. Practically, it was nothin much to say, juz the normal rountine of wat you would do when u are given a project. But the good part is, when Weijie starts talkin to me abt the relationships stuffs.
Like he was saying, in the long-run, everything dies down, even includin the "everlasting" love for each other. But however, it's the commitment you have for each other that keeps the relationship goin. Yes, i do feel, commitment is a factor, but to me, it doesn't plays a major role. Wellz, like, i'm committed to u emotionally, but i'm not tryin hard enough to make the relationship work out? So is Commitment necessary in this case? In conclusion, we agreed tat Commitment, needs to be back up, with actions. Actions, like doing something really sweet for the other party. These actions adds the thoughtness into the relationship, that would in turn, sparks up the Commitment factor.
For a realtionship to work, it needs both party to clap. AND at the same beat. "Love is all abt sacrficin, givin, and takin", he qouted and we agreed. Like for example, if i give 100% on this relationship, of coz i expected my bf to make some effort in makin the relationship work. Wat if he doesn't give in 100%, will you still contiunin givin in so much? Hmm, not for me i guess. Wellz, but it does explains the Givin and Takin Part though. But Sacrifin? Means givin up ur own space and freedom? He got me confused abt this too. Like he was tellin me, he dun interact with girls after 10pm, and he doesn't go out alone with another girl. He choose not too, and expect his gf to do the same. [Love is great, isit it?] But I was thinkin Duh~. We are supposed to have our own freedom to go out with whoever. It's like abit too exgarratin. For me, i dun wana to be steppin into his own personal space, and of coz, i dun wana anyone to restrict me too. Yes, changes needs to be made for a relationship, but is the changes like tat too much? I do think so.
Wellz, anyway, it's not up to the other parties to comment much on a relationship, as it involves only 2person. But i guess, the rest could help to analysis the situation? Indeed, it feels good to be in love, and being loved. But wat if, u aren't even sure if the person is fallin in, as much as u do? I guess, this is where the Insecurities come in. Sighs.
Ok, I admit, i haven been bloggin recently, cause i DUNO wat to blog abt. I dun wana to be bloggin for the Sake of bloggin. I dun wana to be typin some stuff juz to minimise the Interval between each entry. U guys get wat i mean? Anyway, maybe i should blog somethin today, or else the gap from the last entry could go on and on. But Pratically, there's nothin much for me to type abt. Except for the fact that the past few days had been spent fruitfully in the accompanice of my Babes & Dar.
Thursday = Went Sunset Bay with my Girls, MovieDate with Dar.
Friday = Was Hangin out with Dar, over at his place.
Saturday = Slackin with Dar at his place, AGAIN!
Even though it maybe juz stayin home on a sunny afternoon. However, being with someone u wana be, makes a huge difference. Wellz, BUT this doesn't mean i like slackin at home each time huh! [Got the Hint?! Hee...]
Oh, Guess wat, my mom juz gave me two tickets to the NDP Preview, on the 31st July. Gee, i'm so excited abt it! Can't wait for the the month to pass. And the reason is because, i haven been so "LIVE" at an NDP before, and i wana an experience of being at a NDP(Not countin the Preview Part). I do hope it's much different from wat we are watchin on Television, as each time the NDP shows, it nvr fails to put me off to sleep. Sighs, WHATEVER! Now, who should i ask along??!!
Oh great, it's Fathers' Day! But my dad's not around. Darn, i missed him so much, not forgettin my "irriatin" sis. [Maybe, because i'm so fuckinly broke now?]. While Dad gets to enjoy himself in Taiwan, i'm coopin at home with my stupid "Always-not-at-home" bro. How awesome is tat huh? Hope he will be back soon, coz i plan to have a belated Fathers' Day Celebration with him, IF only, Bro is willin to chip in for the cake too. Haa, Cheapo me!
Was plannin for 3 full day shoppin this week, today at compass point & TM, tml at Town, and on monday, I'm goin Malaysia! Coz, there's no places to shop in Singapore! Craps, i'm juz bored la. Dun wana cope at home the whole day, needa another CHEAP getaway. I juz wana chill out with my cousie & friends before the SIP starts, it sounds so dreadful. In short, this week is FULLY PACKED, with activities. Hope they wouldn't punk'd me the last minute huh?
Seriously, I wana spend sometime with Dar too, but... I Duno! I feel emotionally unstable. I wondered wat's causin it. Maybe, i'm expectin too much? Might be because we had both sunked into our own comfort zone, too used to the old habits tat we are not willin to make any changes for this. Perhaps we are not willin to commit fully to each other, hmmm, this i'm not sure. DUNO LA! I think the best is to take a step at a time, coz we nvr know wat will happen in the future. I sounded so old-skool, do i? Dun CARE! But these are all my thinkin, haven tok to him abt how am i feelin too. Coz i duno how, and i think if i do, it's like buggin him to the core. Anyway, i hope i can fuckinly cast all these thoughts aside. FAST.
I juz needa someone to talk to now, to pour out the unhappy feelin in me. But at this time, 6:30am in the mornin? ALL MY FRIENDS ARE SLEEPIN!! Tat explains the emo shits here.
I've this feelin tat i'll lose you soon, very soon. This happy feelin seems to be endin. I duno Y maybe i'm not confident of this whole thing, or it's juz i'm not confident abt myself? Suddenly, strange thoughts of ur No-Commitment Singlehood Lifestyle, Or perhaps u'll get bored of me, Or i'm drivin u crazy with the insecure feelings tat u have.. Seriously, i Duno Much. But I know i'm Really Fallin for u, it seems Deeper and Deeper. Sighs.
Was supposed to go Malaysia with Dad today, but, i'm still here, which means, i'm not goin. Humpf! Now, i'm left all alone at home! I hate this type of situations. Damn.
I went cycling with alvin yesterday. Hehe, it was FUN! Nearly died of laughter. I mean, we really do stupid things like goin ard lookin for funny notice signs, after we saw one sign tat says "Watch out for fallin coconuts"! And after 1.5hours of cycling, i THEN realised i've been cyclin with HIGH suspension ALL THE WHILE! No wonder my legs hurts more den my BUTT! Anyway, It was one ENJOYABLE day out with one friend!
After the cycling, we went Bishan to catch The Best Bet, the local production. I often think there's nothin attractive to local production, esp, Jack Neo's, but this show was damn hilirous!! I mean it was really tyical Singaporean way of livin! But the endin? Wasn't wat i expected though. I always like TragiC endings. HEhe, cause it would get pple wonderin abt it. Anyway, catch the show if u understand Hokkiens, i think abt 80% of the show is in Hokkiens. Got me confused ponderin wat the hell are they sayin though, but there's still english subtitles. Hmmm..... Guess i'm no spoiler huh??
