I felt lost, I felt outcast, I felt not at ease.
I stumbled, I lost the direction, I forgot the rules of my game.
I self-entertained, I walked around the resort, I fag whole day.
Wat actually happened, wat actually went wrong, wat actually didnt take place.
I can be very sure, it's impossible, i din fall in love, with you all over again.
I cant comprehend, I cant pinpoint, I cant think of a reason to explain.
I should have gone home, i shouldnt waited, i shouldnt be even there the very 1st place.
Just i went, rather early, but left rather late.
It's a birthday, a 21st birthday, where it should be a happy pharse.
But how come I feel funny, all the while, in a weird way.
I wondered. I agreed. I doubted myself.
Tat underneath my every smile, every laughter i've portrayed.
Am i really happy, leading this way.
I'm clueless, I'm stuck, in my hopeless thoughts.
I wandered, far away, and had lost the directions in my life.
I led day by day, night by night, just waiting to survive.
I needa retreat, i needa shelter, I needa to hide.
Into my solitary corner, where i no-one shall find.
Let the skeptical me be the boundary for others to see.
For away from this sitution, is where i really want to be...
As much as, I wanted to be somewhere where i'm all by myself,
But I wanted desperately a shoulder to cry, someone to hug silently,
Contridicting. Contridicting. Contridicting.
I duno why. I just feel really lousy.
I duno where. But, i'll get myself back.
Somehow. Somehow. Somehow.
Inside.myside.is.a.place.i.live.all.alone
But.next.to.that.place.there's.a.gap.waitin.for.someone.to.come.along
As.much.as.i.wanted.to.be.strong
I.guess.i.m.just.as.vulnerable.on.my.own
