Saturday, March 26, 2005

Hmmm. let's see. Wat's in my life recently. nothin new in particular. Except the fact tat all my papers had ended. And I'm been enjoyin myself for the past 2days.

Yesterday: Went Ikea. Got myself a full-length stand up mirror for a mere price of only $48. Thks to the Ikea sales. Dirt-cheap I shall say. Next we end to Pasir Ris Park, and gave Jem a sandbath. Haha. More details at Jem's Blog.

Today: Did some reformation to my room. Includes a long long overdue spring-cleaning too. Can you imagine I haven did any "clearing-of-old-stuffs" in the Chinese New Year. The main reason of the impromptu cleanup is tat. I needa make some space for the mirror. So I might as well. You know. Give my room a new look then. And off to mahjong at Kel's place.

Watever. Just some mundane stuffs. Which I see no need to go into great details. Anyway. In this holiday season. There are so much upcomin events. Like E068's chalet, BZE's DnD, GentinTrip with the Course, Perth Trip with the girls, more trails, nightcyclin, mahjongs, coconut indulges, swimmin. I can go on forever man. The life of a free person. The fact that the jobless me, had nothin to do practically. Makes me excited.

Anyway, I just realized. I'm still. Very setback in my thinkin regardin should girls takin the initiative to start a relationship. I was talkin to my friend on MSN, and he was askin me these related relationship question. Like, when is the best time, and all. Den suddenly he asked, "Would you even think about taking the 1st initiative." Without much considerin, a straight "NO" comes into my mind. But havin givin a few seconds of thought, I would, but not to the face. And this would only happens if, I'm DARN sure and confident of the guy's response. Go on, and brag tat this is the 21st century, it's no big deal. Aint we fightin for equality of the sexes. Aint the society gettin more open-minded. Aint watever. Den let me ask you. So wat we are in the 21st century. We girls still do have our preserved rights, dont we deserve this tiny respect of havin a guy goin head over heels with us. I dun see why, the 21st century's girls should bow down, give up the well-deserved respect, and risked deemin as an easy prey. Wellz, at least not to me.

But in most cases, I would rather choose to be the passive party when it comes to this type of situation. I rather have the opportunity to decide on the significant answer. I would rather sit back, and "enjoy" the thrill. And leave the chasin part to the macho guys. Be it to impress, or to amuse. They have the privilege. So. They can have it.

But, For guys to do the chasing part. Is biblically stated. Remember, when God 1st created Adam, he took 1 rib out of him to create Eve. So that explains. Among the vast of the millions of people, Adam[Man] had to search for his rightful missin rib, to make his another half. So Eve[Women], would just wait around, for the Man to do the search, and like a juggle piece, that holds the completion to his puzzle. Tat's the women's rightful worth. Doesnt it seems right. Even the book of truth stated it. Hurhurhur.

Still. I find it difficult to approach. The most I would do. Send signals. Wellz, the eyes dun lied. Elaborate. I cant. Seriously. But dont you realise, e way you looked at someone who are interested in is just different. And this for real. Wellz, my reasons for being passive, when it comes to makin the 1st move. Reason 1: I dun see y i needa to, when there's plenty to choose from. Haha. Ok. Silly joke. Ok, God knows, what the guys would brag to his friends. They can say anythin. And i mean ANYTHIN to put me down, just to have a little boost on their self-esteem. God Knows, Wat the guys would say behind my back man. Just to make them seems so goddamn highly about themselves. Anythin. can come out of them. So why risk it. And who the one who suffers in the end, being portray as all sort of nonsense callings. You may say, "You think too much la", or "just dun be bothered lor". Wellz, yes, maybe i think too much, i can. And of course, i can Not be bothered about their immaturity. But den, i see no need to spark a rumour out of a peace. Things can be prevented, if. In the 1st place, it doesnt occur at all. My logic.

However. on the other hand. Even a guy would go all out for this particular girl, it doesnt mean it would be reciprocated. Seriously, being a long runner in the term of love, doesnt ensure you win the race in the end. Steppin in, chasin hard would results in a complete different conclusion. Sometimes, the whole chase would get backfires, leavin the girl suffocated. However, similarity, givin too much breathin space would results in circulation to square one. So in this case, wat now. Should or Should not. Go or go BACK. Is it worth it, my dear, is it worth it. People are just weird.

beautiful memories on. 3:23:00 am x ........................................