Sunday, June 20, 2004

Oh great, it's Fathers' Day! But my dad's not around. Darn, i missed him so much, not forgettin my "irriatin" sis. [Maybe, because i'm so fuckinly broke now?]. While Dad gets to enjoy himself in Taiwan, i'm coopin at home with my stupid "Always-not-at-home" bro. How awesome is tat huh? Hope he will be back soon, coz i plan to have a belated Fathers' Day Celebration with him, IF only, Bro is willin to chip in for the cake too. Haa, Cheapo me!

Was plannin for 3 full day shoppin this week, today at compass point & TM, tml at Town, and on monday, I'm goin Malaysia! Coz, there's no places to shop in Singapore! Craps, i'm juz bored la. Dun wana cope at home the whole day, needa another CHEAP getaway. I juz wana chill out with my cousie & friends before the SIP starts, it sounds so dreadful. In short, this week is FULLY PACKED, with activities. Hope they wouldn't punk'd me the last minute huh?

Seriously, I wana spend sometime with Dar too, but... I Duno! I feel emotionally unstable. I wondered wat's causin it. Maybe, i'm expectin too much? Might be because we had both sunked into our own comfort zone, too used to the old habits tat we are not willin to make any changes for this. Perhaps we are not willin to commit fully to each other, hmmm, this i'm not sure. DUNO LA! I think the best is to take a step at a time, coz we nvr know wat will happen in the future. I sounded so old-skool, do i? Dun CARE! But these are all my thinkin, haven tok to him abt how am i feelin too. Coz i duno how, and i think if i do, it's like buggin him to the core. Anyway, i hope i can fuckinly cast all these thoughts aside. FAST.

I juz needa someone to talk to now, to pour out the unhappy feelin in me. But at this time, 6:30am in the mornin? ALL MY FRIENDS ARE SLEEPIN!! Tat explains the emo shits here.

beautiful memories on. 6:08:00 am x ........................................