Wednesday, April 06, 2005

Condemn. Is defined as. To pronounce judgment against. To express strong disapproval of.

Ping says. It's too strong a word. Nan says. He believes wat he sees. They say. Everyone was shootin at them, with words that inflicted hurt. I said silently. I regretted.

I started to ask myself. Am I really contented. Throughout the 3years of Poly life. Sadly No. Wat did i really gained in return. A dip, plus tons of "i-shouldnt" feelings. There are remorseful feelings towards those involved. There are things that I cant forget. There are scenes, which I started to visualize the whole incident. There are surprises behind the whole truth. There are moments I wished I had a better way of handling things. There are times where I felt all these shouldnt be happenin, if I would just not be so self-opinionated. There are many times, things would have been much better. I guess.

They say, It's ok, just let it be, it's in the past, you've changed. Yes, I've learned. The hard way. I started to change, to be accepted, for the better. But however, many a times, I doubt things just aint wat we sees. The surface friendliness is just for an act. Still, the distant me, cant really comprehend wat's are they really thinkin about.

But still. I'm just grateful. For I've found. People like Ping and Nan, who stood by me. All these while.

beautiful memories on. 3:14:00 pm x ........................................