Thursday, September 13, 2007

it's the time of the year. yet again.

it's the time again for submission of application to leading universities. maybe not leading for my case. but then still again. the dilemma.

it's been almost 2years since graduation. time indeed, waits for no one.

many of my peers like liu(he), agatha, or xiaoqian is on the verge of graduation, or had already worn the "square-cap" robe, smile happily on their commemoration day. but of course, they had embarked on the journey of education immediately after the polys, while the rest of us ventured into the society of working class citizen, or too, shouldered the responsibilities of servin the nation.

it's always prick in the finger, when time like this comes.

much pple around me encouraged and emphasized the importances of gettin that degree. quotes like:-
"no degree next time you'll work like hell." - from dad
"no paper cert, how long you need to work as junior management?" - from hei
"you're only 23 - still young, faster go study." - from bf's mum
"to rise to management level, there must be papers to back u up." - from my own boss (indirectly)

i swear, havin such hearsay thousands and one times, would gives you the inferiority complex at times.

unlike most, money is no major issue to me. neither, am born with a silver spoon, nor have tons of savings. merely based on a sentence; "education is the least all parents can give their kids", dad has no qualms abt me askin for $60K when i proposed to pursue a 3years course upon poly graduation. rememberin then, he just answered my prospal like this; "give me your calculations, tell me you're determined and confident, and i'll pack you off." but then again. idea was subsequently dropped. havin the rights to the thousands of "university sum" that dad had set aside for each of us, doesnt not mean one should take it.

so do i still wana don that "graduation robe" and smile to the camera, with a "unfitting-cap-flowers-in-hand-and-dad-by-my-side"?

erm.

am still in a dilemma.

i have two choices now.
i) work my way to for more f&b experience and relative networks, use the "university sum" for my capital, fulfill my long-time goal in runnin a small-time cafe. (*havin the upper hand currently, as bro is runnin his own cafe too. everyone in the family sings the same tune.)

or

ii) get a double honors and make everyone around me, esp dad, happy & proud. (maybe includin myself too)


wat's so irony now is:-

after one year so, am still figurin my future path, and still yet to decide between these two choices.

reminds myself. time waits for no-one.

this time, i give myself a dateline. I MUST do something. submission closes on 1 OCT!

beautiful memories on. 11:27:00 am x ........................................